Summer’s ended and without a trace
time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thought I walked on through
with my heart in one

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

How I tried to get you off my mind
but you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
like the fool I am

Chorus:

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Oh baby why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

I’ve been trying to release you
to get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
even if I know I should back away
It’s just a part of me that I can’t erase

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I’m still reminded
[the ghost of you]
Anywhere I go I keep colliding with
[the ghost of you]
I’ve given up I just can’t fight it
[the ghost of you]

Everytime I look away I see
the ghost of you

Been to a major heartbreak, pero ok lang. I’m still surviving, and yes, MOVING ON! And in-love? Probably…

Ilan lang ‘yan sa manipestasyon pag in-lab ako. YEP:You read it right — INLAB AKO! Haay…nakakaloka! Help me! Handa na ba ako? Is this gonna be Chapter 3 of my non-existent lovelife? Eherm… Basta ride na lang! Even if it leads me nowhere! Carry lang! It’s not everyday that i feel elated and ecstatic like this, di ba? As I always say : BAHALA NA SI BATMAN!!!

So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I’m far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me I..

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I’m losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn’t even scream ….I

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn’t even scream… I

And it’s all that I’ve got
Yeah, it’s all that I’ve got

—–

Bert McCracken and the rest of The USED, pahiram ng lyrics, a!

My, after 30 years nakapanood din ako ng TV. Nakakatuwa, aliw na aliw ako sa Princess Hours at Maging Sino Ka Man. Kinikilig at naiinis ako at the same time sa kina Janelle at Gian. Pero bet ko pa din si Prinsipe Troy.

Buti na lang nag-champion din ang Ginebra despite sinasabi ng brod ko na scripted daw. There’s no way they could defeat San Miguel! I DON’T FRIGGIN’ CARE!

Nakakaloka din si Bakekang, lalo na ‘yong episode nila for Feb12 . Duh! Nalunod daw ‘yong mga anak niya at tapos ang katangahan ng lola mo, nauntog pa habang lumalangoy — ang katapusan, tatlo silang nalunod! Tsungingi! D-U-H!!!

Pero lately, naaaliw ako sa mga commercials, ads - Lalo na ung Nation Paint! Bagong painted ung walls at may isang guy na magwi-wee sana pero nakonsensiya. The best! Ang saya saya naman nun. Ang tapang tapang. DISCIPLINE. DISCIPLINE. DISCIPLINE. ‘Yon ang kulang sa Pinoy! Tanong : Gusto mo rin bang maihian sa mukha??? ‘Yun ‘yun!

I’ve been to a major emotional blow…ba’t ganon, pag may isang problem ka, may paparating na naman? Sabagay, when it rains, it pours…

I know naging unfair ako to some friends by not updating them with all that’ve been happening, I mean to tell ‘em in person kasi but it seems they took it against me…(sigh)

I don’t wanna talk about it now, gusto ko pag ok na ‘ko…

I’m asking for understanding and respect…I’d open up soon…

Someday you’re gonna realize
One day you’ll see through my eyes
But then i won’t even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if i can’t

Coz someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone’s gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i won’t even miss you
Someday, someday

—–

naki-kanta lang ako…

Why, totoo naman life is a cycle… paikot-ikot…paulit-ulit…sakyan mo na lang or mabaliw ka kung gusto mo!

Pag naiisip ko siya naiinis ako sa sarili ko…sana maumpog na ko sa semento at matauhan (wish ko lang matauhan sa kagagahan ko sa kaniya, wag lang masyadong grabe, hate ko pa naman ang hospitals!)…sige na magpo-post na lang ako ng quote at baka puro ka-dramahan na may halong comedy na naman ang mabasa ninyo dito…

"The happier i get, the harder i fall ; the harder i fall, the more i need you; the more i need you the less you’re there; the less you’re there, the more i want you; the more i want you, the more i love you; the more i love you, the happier i get…I was so determind never to fall again… But then i met you and im back to where i started"

See? Cycle lang talga ang life, laging back at one!

It was a very awesome Sunday afternoon and I was very excited to see familiar faces in the church and of course to praise God. Pastor Oriel was so funny. Ung mababasa ninyo was one of his stories during his sermon.

One day Bill Gates died. He was asked by God to select which way he’d go — heaven or hell. Bill Gates replied, "How could I choose if I know neither! I wouldn’t know the difference!"

So God, with his ever precious gift to us gave Bill his free will to select. God requested Peter to accompany him to hell. Then, Bill Gates was very fascinated by what he saw — blue beach, white sand and sexy ladies in their swimsuits running around. Bill said to himself,"Ain’t this cool? I think I like it here."

And so Peter appealed,"Want to see heaven?". Bill Gates agreed and was brought to heaven. When Bill Gates reached heaven, he was disappointed with what he saw — angels singing and playing their harps. Bill Gates told himself,"Is this heaven? So boring."

Then God asked Bill,"So what’s your choice Bill?". Bill replied,"I think I like hell better than heaven". So while God was disappointed and unhappy with Bill’s decision, He still requested Peter to send Bill to hell.

After a couple of months, Peter visited Bill Gates and Bill rushed to him and said,"I don’t wanna be here anymore! I’m stinking and burning here. Tell me Peter, why, when the first time we came here, it wasn’t like this and everything seemed nice and cool?".

Peter replied,"The first time we came here, you were just seeing a SCREENSAVER!"

Jahnays is going to Singapore!

I dare say I’m proud of her as she boldly follows her heart and sought after her dreams. But I would miss her as well…

Wala ng mangungulit saken at mag-aayang lumabas kahit wala pa ‘kong tulog…

Wala nang manggugulo saken at pipilitin akong pumunta ng Megamall para lang tulungan siyang mag-edit ng resume or magbayad ng bill niya sa GLOBE…

Wala ng iiyak saken para lang pumunta ako sa Megamall or sa Podium at kumain s Burgoo dahil marami siyang kuwento…

At lastly, wala ng magtatampo saken pag hindi ko nasamahang gumawa ng lease of contract…

pero…

pag masama ang timpla ko, wala n den ako makakaladkad mag-window shopping…

hindi na den ako makakapunta sa Bulacan at makikitulog sa bahay nila minsan…(mami-miss ko rin si Tita)

mababawasan ang mga naniniwalang maganda at matalino ako (hehehe)…

Lastly, mami-miss ko ang nag-iisang tumatawag sa ‘kin ng DE ASIS!

Pero friend, mami-miss kita.

Iba ‘yong pinagsamahan natin nung college..tumira tayo sa isang bahay, nagkalabasan ng ugali at nagkatampuhan den minsan (Tanda mo nung mag-walk out ka dahil inaway kita?), mami-mis ko ung sabay taung natutulog sa jeep pauwi sa inyo kasi mahigit 2 hours ata ung biyahe. Mami-miss ko ‘ung tawa mo, ung pagtili mo makarinig lang ng lovesong at maya-maya iiyak na…

In short, kung may magagawa lang ako sana naging college studs n lang tau forever! Kasi ang saya nun kahit 1 week na lang at hindi pa umaandar ung system, tas ung documentation, laging nire-revise. Ang sarap nung feeling nung nagpupuyat tau sa apartment na ‘kala mo subsob sa pagagawa ng program, pero nanonood lang pala ng movies (pirated CD-marathon)…Natatandaan mo b nung maki-iyak tayo kay Mandy Moore sa A Walk to Remember kahit ilang beses n nting pinanood? Tas naaalala mo ba ung pinanood natin na *CENSORED* dahil curios tayong lahat?! Tapos nakakatuwa sa lahat pag may dumadalaw satin, libre mirienda…pero kapag thursday na or friday, pancit canton n lang ulam natin!? Tas kahit dis oras n ng gabi, naglalakad pa rin tayo along Teresa…

Haaayyy…nakaka-miss talaga. But no matter how much we want, we should all grow up and search for our own place under the sun. BUt while we’re miles apart, the memories linger and live in our hearts…

Good luck to your endeavors, whatever happens, I’ll always be here for you…

It happened yesterday, by accident…it wasn’t planned…not at all!

It happened at SM North Edsa, The Block Bldg… Finally na-devirginized na rin…ang face ko…

Malen and I had facial treatments at DermStrata. First-time ko talaga at naiyak ako. Feeling ko nagpa-liposuction ako kasi dinudutdot ang face ko ng kung anong sharp metal. Sabi ko sa nagpe-facial sakin, "Miss parang ni-nipper ung mukha ko". Aba, tinawanan lang ako…at hindi pa nagkasya, nilagyan pa ng kung anong cement ang face ko…

But I think it’s worth it, feeling rejuvenated naman ung face ko…at mamula-mula after the treatment — "Tisay!" sabi ni Malen.