"the will to change", I covet you like dream, why are you so elusive? - JANIS
ang hirap magbago noh? parang everyday, pinangarap ko na sana may magbago sa buhay ko, pero wala pa ring nangyayari. napapagod na lang ako kahahabi ng mga pangarap (at ilusyon) pero wala pa ring natutupad ni isa man lang! nakakapagod ang mag-isip, maghintay, mangarap…
this is the reason why I love the current edition of COSMO, especially their self-help article about how to change your life and live it to the fullest. maraming bits of info at moral akong natututunan. siguro nga kaya walang nangyayari sa buhay ko is because I never had the will to change. To change means to start. as a human being, I have my share of fears — facing the unknown and the uncertain. Kasi if you decide to change, that means you are willing to start, yes, even to start from nothing, from scratch. nakakatakot nga namang harapin ang isang blankong papel — sisimulan mo na ba? Pero paano? Saan? But I need to change kaya nga simula ngayon, I’ll start the journey to really know my inner self, the true "ME", what I love to do, what / who I wanna be.
after careful evaluation, ito ‘yong mga sisimulan kong baguhin:
1. WEIGHT. For someone who had gained 23 lbs over the past 3 years, bringing back her former weight is more like an illusion, rather than a challenge. I’ve to watch what I’m eating and exercise more. This brings me to no.2.
2. EXERCISE. Kailan nga ba ‘yong may particular sport akong nilalaro every week. I used to be a mountaineer as well. Sabi nga ng nanay ko, Kelangan ko daw mag-crunches everyday, AT LEAST 100. 100 crunches, kumusta naman yun?!
3. CAREER. Hindi naman ibig sabihin aalis na ko sa industriyang minahal ko - CALL CENTER. I tried na umalis dati, hindi effective. Tsk,tsk, walang night diff, no allowances, no 5-digit salary payday after payday…But I know I won’t stay that long sa industry (ang tagal kasi gumradweyt ng brother ko, mahal ang tuition), but I still would follow what my heart desires — teach and be a programmer at the same time. Yup, hindi ko pa din gini-give up ang pangarap ko, ehehe. These past few years, na-realize ko how lucky I am to have learned a lot about computers and network administration, and I felt compelled to share it, so what better way to do it than to teach, di ba? One more thing, I intend to perfect my writing skills so I would definitely have a formal education in writing. Isusunod ko ‘yong short courses sa culinary arts, focusing on pastries and baking and also Italian cuisine. Wait, pasta and pizza lang siguro.
4. FINACIAL MANAGEMENT. I don’t wanna live paycheck per paycheck, ayoko na nung ganon. I wanna have financial freedom - ‘yong hindi mo hihintayin ‘yung next na payday na halos gumapang na. Kailangan systematic ‘yong incoming at outgiong na money para nare-regulate at nali-limit ‘yong unnecessary spending.
5. LOVELIFE. Well, pag-iisipan ko muna kung kalililimutan ko na ang ilusyon ko kay *toot* (kanino pa nga ba?) or magmo-move on na lang at ibaling sa iba (na nag-aabang…hehehe…as if)! Kaput! Janis, paulit na umiinog ang mundo pero naiiwan ka sa ilusyon mo!!! H O Y . G I S I N G ! ! ! !
Hay, Janis, tama bang gumawa ng Resolution sa gitna ng taon??? Oo naman, this is what you call Mid-Year Resolution! Pero ngayon, kailangan ko munang matulog. Sige, guys, sweet dreams!
